Chapter 1
WHY AM I FEELING THIS AGAIN?
I AM HAPPY.
I AM CONTENT.
I AM SATISFIED.
SO WHY DOES MY HEART FEEL LIKE THIS?
THERE IS A HEAVINESS I CAN’T NAME.
A QUIET ACHE THAT WON’T LEAVE.
I FEEL UNSEEN.
I FEEL UNCHOSEN.
I FEEL LIKE NO ONE IS FIGHTING FOR ME.
AND SOMEHOW,
I FEEL WORTHLESS—
EVEN WHEN I KNOW I’M NOT.
MY FAMILY LOVES ME.
I KNOW THAT.
I KNOW I MATTER TO THEM.
SO WHY AM I STILL REACHING?
WHY AM I STILL HUNGRY FOR MORE?
MY HEART IS FULL,
YET IT FEELS EMPTY.
I AM SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING
I DON’T EVEN WANT—
AND IT’S EXHAUSTING.
WHY DOES THIS FEEL SO HEAVY?
WHY DOES IT HURT LIKE THIS?
WHY AM I BOTHERED?
WHY?
