Loud Secrets

"I did this"

I dreaded those words. They weren't for praise but a great deal of remorse.

I'll explain it.

Every teenager knows the worst part of going to parties with your parents. The never-ending questions and the advice we never asked for. It does get annoying, trust me. They act like they've known you better than you know yourself. It's always the same thing" you're young you haven't seen as much," or" Have fun enjoy!"

Yeah no.

I've dealt with things worse than an average human being, and I'm not proud of being in the middle of all that. Is it life-changing? Yeah. Is it annoying at times? Um yeah. Do you want it to stop? Of course. Can you just leave and pretend it never happened? Of course....not.

My name is Tessa Emily Morgan. I am a 17-year-old girl. I have a sister named Alyssa Hannah Morgan, who is 14 years old. I have never been outside of my home except for vacations and business parties. Yeah, my parents are filthy rich, and it brushes off on them. I haven't been able to do the thing I love for the last couple of years, and that is to sing my heart out. But rules are rules, and I've lived beside them for basically my entire life. All my mother has done has yelled at me for being a mistake in so many different languages that I honestly tell her sorry and leave hearing her call me stupid and dumb until she sees dad come in 4 hours later. Me and dad were super close but because of me and my mum arguing he thinks its just going to settle down naturally. Yeah that never happened and he kept on making excuses and leaving for business trips regularly, and he would be gone for months. I kept telling myself, when I was younger, to stay strong and listen to my parents and please them for their happiness and mine. I thought they were the smart ones and that they would tell me the right things. However, it had nothing to do with joy, no I learned the only reason they haven't kicked me out is the fact that once I am 18, I will inherit more money than they could make in a million years. Since I'm the oldest heir on either side of the family, my net worth right now is about 7.3 million, and once I inherit 73 million dollars, making me one of the wealthiest kids the world has ever seen. They think I don't know and that's why they treat me like this

They say money can't buy you happiness, but in reality, that's how my parents think. Money is what got them to be owners of the biggest company on the planet; money is what got them a home, a car, food.. you get what I mean. They appreciate the biggest and only the biggest. At the same time, I, on the other hand, only care for the little things like the seasons changing, people speaking different languages, the sunset, and sunrise, a simple necklace, an act of kindness, a smile. I just wish they saw that instead of yelling at me 24/7 and calling me a mistake. I just want them to like me for who I am, not for what I want to be.

The right side of my life is my love, my best friend since 7... Matthew. Matthew was there for me when my parents weren't. He was my one and only. I went to my first carnival with him, got my first car with him, my first time sneaking out with him, had my first argument with him over a game of UNO, mate it was a fairy tale. I loved him more than anything. I look back at texts sometimes just to make me feel closer to him. And I cry knowing he is gone and I won't see him again.

Yes, they do say fairytales don't always end well, and that's what happened to me. I wanted to surprise him after coming back from a trip, and I went to find him. I saw him at a park, and I jumped on his back to surprise him. At first, he became stiff, and then he laughed and grabbed hold of me and cried when he realized who I was. I smiled at him and kissed him smack dab on the cheek while taking a selfie at the same time. I got off of him, and then we started walking talking laughing you name it. It was a perfect moment, but as I said, beautiful things can leave just as they came. I opened my eyes to see a man dressed in all black come up to me and point a gun at me. I stood there shocked, but Matt, on the other hand, saw what was happening and stood in front of me and he got shot... I never saw him again, My parents made us move, and the worst part was when his brother told me that he was going to ask me to be his girlfriend.

I cried for months when I was alone in my room. My parents didn't know about how Matt and I were close; all they saw was a threat to the family. They made us change our names and we moved 7 times in total so far. A different name each time. A different school. Different friends. But the same pain bearing in my stomach. Things can change, don't they. Every school a new start.

Indeed they do.

I am Tessa Morgan

and this is how one loud wish changed my life forever.

This is my first book really. I did base a lot of this off of life experiences, but I promise that all you can see is my horrible grammar and my failure of an attempt using Grammarly.

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