I Breathe without a Heart

It was around 5.30 am and I was jogging like every other day but, that day maybe I did extra because suddenly after 10 minutes I started to feel my breath gotten heavy and I lose my consciousness. When I opened my eyes I found myself in the hospital. After inquiring the doctor, the doctor told me that some girl admitted you in the morning and you were totally unconscious thanks to that girl you’re fine otherwise it might have gotten worst. That got my curiosity and I asked the doctor about her I told them I just want to thank her in person. So the doctor gave me her number and everything.

The next day I got discharged from the hospital and I called her that night. I thanked her. When I asked her how you ended up admitting me she said I was happened to be there and I saw you there on the floor and there was no one so I got you admitted. I again thanked her and I asked her to meet me just thank her in person. First, she hesitated but, then she said yes. The next day we met in the mall we had coffee we did a little bit of shopping we played some games and many things. That day I felt like I lived my best day and I never had that kind of experience before. While leaving her, I saw happiness on her face she told me “YOU SHOWED ME HOW TO BE HAPPY” and then we left.

The next morning we happened to bump each other in the park. We spend that morning time together walking and talking. While leaving from the park I asked her if you don’t mind can I ask you out some time? She said yes why not and then we left. Next morning when we met again in the park I asked her out for a movie. In the evening we went for a movie but, we ended up talking instead of watching a movie. After the movie, we went for dinner and had ice cream. When I dropped her she asked me when you are going to ask me out again. I felt so happy and I was like “THIS IS THE REALITY OR SOME KIND OF A DREAM”. So, after two days we again went out and after that, we used to meet regularly and that’s how we started to date each other. We started liking each other and that feeling grows into love. After two months I asked her to move in with me and we ended up living together.

It’s been five months since she moved in with me and we were having our best time. One day we were playing table tennis and suddenly I lost my consciousness she admitted me in the hospital. Doctors did some tests on me and the next day they called me and told me that I am suffering from “Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease (CJD)” it’s a very rare disease in which CJD gradually destroys brain cells and causes tiny holes to form in the brain and that was the reason you used to lose your consciousness that often. I was shocked hearing that and I again lost my consciousness and they admitted me. They called her and told her about this disease and everything. When she came to me she started crying, she was like why “BACHHU” (she used to call me by that nickname) why with you, what did you do and while crying she fell asleep on my lap. The next day doctor gave me discharged but, asked me to take care of myself. After that, she started acting very strangely and started taking care of me so much like she doesn’t have her own life she started to do her work from home just to keep eye on me. That time whenever I used to see her I felt like she lost her smile but, we both knew that we lost something very important in our lives and that was living. I tried many times to make her smile but, I realized that she lost that beautiful smile permanently.

One day we were having tea and after tea, she went out to buy some groceries. I was getting bored so I was searching for something to read or play. While searching I found a book about “Coronary artery disease” (the form of heart disease and the most common cause of heart failure) it got my attention so I picked up that book and below that book, I found a letter from some medical laboratory and it was for hers. So I opened it and read it after reading it I found that she suffering from that disease and after 3 to 4 years her heart will fail completely and eventually she will die. It was a shock for me and maybe because of that, she started acting this strange. When she came back I showed her that letter and asked why did you choose to hide this from me? She said you are already suffering and I don’t want you to suffer more so I chose to keep quiet. But after everything I made her understand that we are together in this fight and we both want to live more together.

The next day we went to the hospital to check her and the doctor told me everything about her current situation. The doctor told me that she is in very critical condition and she needs to have full rest and no stress but, having me around that was just not possible. While searching about that disease I got to know that if the person will get a heart transplant then there are chances for that person to live. I called the doctor and asked him to enrol her for that. But, the doctor told there are only 5% chances to find someone with a healthy heart. So, I started searching for by myself but after a month also I got nothing. The next day I went for a regular check-up of mine and that thing about transplant was giving me a hard time so I asked the doctor if there are any chances for me to give my heart for transplant? The doctor was surprised hearing that he said yeah maybe but, I can’t say for sure because you know your condition. I knew that I might die anytime but, at least she has a chance so I decided to give my heart for transplant and asked the doctor not to discuss this thing with her. And I asked the doctor to schedule for a heart transplant in the next month only and when we will come for a test you just get her admitted. That month I did everything because I knew I was not going to get this time again.

The next month when we went for a test the doctor already had everything ready so he admitted her in the hospital and starts the procedure for a heart transplant. That night doctor was going to do the operation and I just wanted to spend that whole time with her so I was there with her till the time for the operation. But, my mind was just not ready for that so, I requested the doctor to do both operations in the same room because I want to hold her hand till the time she will get her heart transplant and after requesting many times doctor agreed for that and he prepared everything accordingly. That night around 8 pm we entered the operation theatre my bed was just beside her like I requested he let me hold her hand and he started the operation. She was unconscious for the whole time as she on the anaesthesia. The operation was successful but, by that time I was dead. When they did the transplant in her body when they attached my heart to her body when my heart started pumping in her body. I felt like I breathe for the last time but, without a heart in my body. In that single breathe I saw her face I saw her breathing I saw my heart in her as it was hers to start with. That single breathe gave me the happiness I wanted to have. That single breathe gave me the smile I wanted to have. That single breathe gave me peace because my love was going to spend her life and I was going to be there with her all the time. In the end all I wanted to hold her hand whenever I will die and this life just gave me that.

Written by: Chotisistories | Chiranjiv 💓

Source: Google (WiKi) for disease details

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