Prologue
How does it feel when you want everything to just stop? To stop blaming yourself, or being antagonized in every situation. But reality hit me hard. The pain, the scars are screaming now just to be freed from the agony that you did to me. You left me alone when I needed you the most. Was I not enough?
You finally made your decision so did I. She was right, it was a mistake. To have a happy ending that felt so real with you, is just gone to dust. I tried a lot but now it's time to give up. To give up what we had; the sparks, love and the nights we spent. I just wish I could take it all back. The damage is done.
I have to do this, I'm so sick of this pain that I don't want to live anymore. One cut beau, no big deal, you'll feel a tiny sting. I took out the razor just in case. The pills, how can I forget them? I emptied the bottle in my hand and just shoved them in my mouth along with some water. I swallowed my death. I don't want anyone to revive me so I'll just cut myself. Just in case... I took out the razor and grazed them along my wrist. I don't need to be saved. The blood won't stop gushing and I don't regret.
Red, the color I loved the most. Never ever in my wildest dreams i could ever think of hating it. I feel a little dizzy. Everything hurts I think I'm losing my balance. Soon everything turns black. Silence.
