Chapter 1
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FABIOLAï»ż
Pain always comes with an expiration dateâmy brother, Matteo, had once said to me, and I, like a foolish child, had believed it. But when growing up had stranded me in an empty boat sailing through the storm for years, pain had been the only thing familiar to me. It had been there since the moment I was born, lingering under my skin, haunting me, giving me endless nights with no sleep but only tears. The reasons for the pain had only ever affected me the most. So perhaps I was the abnormal one.
My head throbbed as a long, shrill sound echoed in my ears. People surrounded me, praising my makeup and the white sheath gown draped around my body.
Whiteâthe symbol of purity and everything good. I wasnât pure. Neither was I good. So why did I have to wear this? Tearing it was half the plan, and then running away was the other half. But I had to think a thousand times before concluding that I couldnât.
Hundreds of Famiglia and Outfit men were guarding this place. If they caught me, they would either shoot me dead or make me dread every decision I had ever made.
âMiss Rossi?â the hairstylist stood between me and the mirror and asked, pulling me out of my reverie. I blinked at her, tilting my head to the side. âMiss Rossi, are you okay?â
âRossi,â I mumbled under my breath, looking down at my hands, bunching my dress over my knees and then at the white stiletto a few steps away from my chair.
Rossi was the name I was born with. The name I had carried so far. The name I didnât want to carry anymore. This name, being a part of this family, has offered me nothing but painâhad built a hole in my heart that would never heal.
âI canât do this,â I said and lifted my face to the woman, whose brows immediately pressed.
She gave an alarming glance to the other women gathered in the room, which cautioned not only them but me as well. These werenât just makeup artists or beauticians. Matteo had appointed them to look after me, to see through my mood changes and to convince me to walk down the aisle no matter what.
He didnât have to do it. Especially when I had been the very one who had said yes to this. Willingly.
But his gesture only made me more anxious. I had almost forgotten the strongest reason behind my decision. All that remained in my head was numbness. Everything hurtâthe view, the sounds, the air. Even these fucking women around me.
I jerked up from my seat, holding the skirt of my dress, not caring how delicate it was. Delicate things were meant to be ruined.
âMiss, calm down. Youâll tear your dress,â another woman from the group spoke.
I didnât know who it was, but I couldnât stand the sight of them. With my breathing hiking, I yelled, âI want everyone out!â They blinked at me with their eyes wide, as though they had seen a ghost. âI said get out.â
The hairstylist grabbed my hand. âMiss, please.â
I twisted my head to the side and glared at her, my nostrils flaring. If they didnât get out, they would see a side of me they wouldnât like. âTouch me again and Iâll fucking kill you.â
Ironic how the words that sounded dangerous when uttered by Matteo sounded equally filthy on my tongue.
âI said get the fuck out,â I bellowed.
The women jolted and bolted out of the room with everything they could grab, and I quickly closed the door with a loud thud. I didnât care if I looked like a crazy eighteen-year-old on drugs. People already thought I was strange.
Rubbing my hand on my rumbling stomach, I paced back and forth in the room. Everything that had happened in these few days rewound in my head. Two days was all it took for me to get here.
Matteo sat on the tea table before the couch right in front of me and stared at me for some reaction, but I didnât know what to say. He said, âSay something, Fabi.â
âWhat do you want me to say?â I grunted. âIâm just looking at how far you Mafiosos will go in the name of duty.â
âYou know my hands are tied.â
âI know that the age gap is a lot, but that doesnât change the fact that youâre my brother, Matteo. Youâre not Papa or Mama. Why canât you just let me be for once?â
Matteo sucked a sharp breath. âYouâre just making things hard on yourself.â
âWell, Iâm not you,â I shot back. âYou can sleep with another woman while being in love with another, but I canât.â
Throwing his hands in the air, Matteo questioned, âHow can you love Luciano De Luca? You never even knew him.â
âI wish you wouldâve cancelled my marriage to him saying the same thing. None of this wouldâve happened.â
Matteo always had the authority to go against Papaâs decision. He was the capo of Chicago Outfit, for fuckâs sakeâthe head above everyone. Even Papa. But Matteo had never fought against him. He had allowed that monster of a father to sell me out to another man as part of a bargain, as a commodity in exchange for an alliance.
âYou can blame me all you want, but you will thank me one day.â
âThank you for finding a surrogate to marry me on the same day, on the same altar where I was supposed to marry Luciano?â I snickered. âWeâll see about that.â
âIâm doing this for you, Fabi.â He sighed. âLuciano is probably standing high and mighty on a pedestal right now, hoping to see our world crumble.â
I doubted that. Luciano had chosen Rosaline over me. Given the man he was, he wouldnât look back, no matter what happened to me, no matter if the Mafia world tore me apart with their words and fake pity.
âHe holds pride in his power and thinks weâre nothing without him. Seeing you moving on with your life will be the biggest counterblast.â
âCounterblast? Itâs all youâve ever worried about. Revenge. Alliance. Power.â I shook my head. âIâm so fucking tired of this.â
Fabiola Rossiâthe girl who had been left behind. By her parents and brother. By her cousins. Now, even by her fiancĂ©.
I was tired of this fucking life. Moreover, I was tired of being a Rossi. Being a part of this family had been the toughest part of my life, always being there but never being able to leave.
There were so many people who wanted me to fall. To break. To give up. Maybe this was my chance at finding out what lay beyond. What I could get without the name Rossi to bind me.
âFine,â I said with a nod. âIâll do it. Iâll marry whoever you want me to.â His face filled with relief and he took a deep breath. âBut on my terms.â
âWhat terms?â
âYouâll see.â
Wanting to not be a Rossi didnât seem like a good enough reason to go through with this marriage anymore. Because that foolish thought could get me trapped in a course far worse than the one I led back home.
A knock landed on the door and I jumped back, my heart doubling its palpitations. I would die of a heart attack as it felt. My entire body was stiff and fear was latching onto every nerve in my body.
I moved toward the door and held the doorknob, contemplating whether to open it. It had to be my cousin Dante Rossi or Matteo here to console me, to talk me into doing the âright thingâ, which, according to them, was getting married.
âMiss Rossi,â a heavy voice sounded. My hand remained on the doorknob but I couldnât turn it. The last thing I wanted was advice from a stranger. âItâs Terenzio.â
My jaw tightened. Terenzio De Vittoâthe underboss of Washington, a renowned Mafioso of New York Famiglia. The big shot that every woman wanted to score, as my brother had mentioned. Every woman but me.
I couldnât see him. Not after everything that had happened, which was why I couldnât open the door, couldnât torture myself that way.
My inner conscience laughed. He was the very one who would be standing at the end of the aisle for me today. I would have to maintain eye contact and sayI doand make fake promises, even when I didnât mean it. But he was also the man whose fiancĂ©e had run away with Luciano. Luciano and Rosaline were gone, but he was still here, making him a constant reminder of what had happened merely four days ago.
Everything went silent for a few moments and I wondered if he had gone off.
But then he cleared his throat and voiced, âI hear you donât wish to walk down the aisle.â
âYouâre not the first one who said this to me.â
I tried to picture his face in my head to imagine the reaction heâd had right now, but I couldnât even remember what he looked like. I had never paid much attention to him. Or any other man. The only man I had eyes for never looked at me twice.
âWhat happened isâwas wrong to both of us,â Terenzio spoke again, his voice calmer than before. âBut you cannot hold on to this forever.â
I frowned. âYou say it as though itâs very easy to let go.â
âIt is not easy,â he scoffed. âBut if you choose to hold on to it, youâll be the one suffering the most. Think about them. Theyâre probably at some beach, spending the time of their life while youâre trapped in a room, crying to yourself.â
They had been at a beach, where they had been photographed for the fucking article that had exposed their affair. Rosalineâs house. I wondered how long they had been doing this.
âItâs okay to be afraid. But if youâre afraid of me, I wish to tell you that I will not hurt you, that there wonât be a moment you would regret if you married me today.â
I already regretted making this decision, so I was sure I would regret going through with it.
In a humble voice, he added, âIâm willing to give you whatever makes you happyâwhatever you want. Please consider this.â I didnât speak and rested my head on the hard surface of the door. âIf you wish to do it, Iâll be at the altar, waiting for you. And if not, I understand.â
The sound of footsteps faded, and I let go of the breath I had been holding onto.
It shocked me how the momentary panic was suddenly gone. It was all because of Terenzioâs words. I had feared getting married to a man who was a complete monster like my father or a robot like my brother. But I was glad Terenzio wasnât like any of them. At least he didnât sound like them.
His words had not only made my mind strong but had also reminded me of the reason I had decided to do thisâthe reason that I had been forgetting amid the chaos that I had been feeling.
Ever since I was a child, I had envied the girls born in the normal world with parents who worked normal jobs. They were not bound by the misogynistic traditions of the Mafia world, free to do what they wanted and go wherever their heart desired. Every night, they would sit around the table and have dinner. God, I could remember the last time Iâd had dinner with anyone.
I desired to live life, feeling the air of a place far away from home where I could be free.
Freedom was what I wanted. The Outfit wouldâve never offered that to me, because they would rather have their women tied up in the house than have them fly with the breeze. Matteo wouldâve never let me go because he, too, had seen the advantage in bartering me, just like Papa.
Only marriage could ensure me both freedom and break me free of the name Rossi. Now all I had to do was run and make Terenzio hate me enough to let me go.