Devour

D E V O U R

Book One

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The Asking Price

The kitchen smelled like someone else’s marriage.

Not dramatically. Not like smoke or perfume on a collar or any of the things that would have given me a clean, cinematic reason to leave. It smelled like fifteen years of Tuesday night chicken and the lavender dish soap I’d bought in bulk from Costco because David said it reminded him of his grandmother. I’d been buying dead-grandmother soap for a decade and a half. That’s the kind of detail that doesn’t make it into the divorce filing.

$4,200.

That was the number in my checking account as of this morning. I’d looked at it three times since breakfast, the way you keep touching a bruise to see if it still hurts. It still hurt. Mortgage: $3,100. That left $1,100 for food, gas, Bea’s orthodontist, Theo’s track fees, and whatever was left of my dignity.

Dignity was going for about twelve dollars a pound these days.

Upstairs, my daughter’s music was doing that thing where the bass vibrated through the ceiling like a second heartbeat. Bea had been in her room since she got home from school, which was three hours ago, which meant she’d passed through the kitchen without speaking to me, which was day forty-seven of the silent treatment, which I was keeping count of because counting things was how I kept from screaming into a throw pillow.

Theo sat at the counter eating cereal and reading something on his phone with the focused calm of a sixteen-year-old who had decided, apparently at birth, to be the adult in every room.

“She’ll come around,” he said, without looking up.

“When?”

“Optimistically? Twenty-six.”

I almost smiled. Almost. Theo had this gift—or maybe this curse—of seeing exactly how bad things were and choosing to be steady anyway. He got it from me. The seeing part. The steadiness was all his own. I’d been about as steady as a shopping cart with a broken wheel since David packed a bag and moved in with a twenty-eight-year-old yoga instructor named after a semiprecious stone.

Jade. Her name was Jade. Like the bracelet you buy at an airport gift shop. Like something that looks expensive until you scratch the surface.

I touched my left ring finger. The bare one. Seventeen years of marriage leaves a mark that isn’t a tan line—it’s a phantom limb. I could still feel the weight of the ring I’d worn since I was twenty-four years old. Twenty-four. I’d been somebody’s wife before I’d been anybody’s anything, and now I was standing in a kitchen that smelled like Costco lavender, doing math I couldn’t make work, listening to my daughter hate me through the ceiling.

This was the after. Nobody tells you the after smells like dish soap.

My phone rang.

I looked at the screen: Margaux Hale. Attorney. My old client network was a graveyard—most of the social circle had picked David in the divorce, the way people pick teams for dodgeball, and I’d been the kid standing alone by the gym wall watching my contacts evaporate. Margaux was one of the few who still called. She’d hired me twice: a Westport colonial and a Greenwich penthouse. Good taste. Fast payment. The kind of woman who could say “I want it to feel effortless” and actually mean it.

“Claire. Tell me you’re available.”

“I’m available.” I was also desperate, but that wasn’t the same thing and we both knew it.

“Full estate renovation. Up north. Forty acres, stone manor, the whole production. The client has money—real money, not new-money-one-bad-quarter-and-it’s-gone money. Six figures. Possibly more depending on scope.”

Six figures. I gripped the edge of the counter. Six figures would pay the mortgage for the rest of the year. Six figures would mean Bea’s braces and Theo’s track fees and maybe, if I was careful, a savings account that didn’t make me feel like I was slowly drowning in a very clean bathtub.

“What’s the catch?” I asked, because there was always a catch. I’d been in this business for sixteen years. Beautiful properties with beautiful budgets always came with something ugly attached.

“He’s fired four designers.”

“Four.”

“Four. In eighteen months.”

“What’s wrong with him?”

“Nothing’s wrong with him. He’s private. Particular. Demanding. The last one quit because he wouldn’t let her into the west wing.”

“The west wing? Is he Mr. Rochester?”

“He’s a widower. Name is Elias Caine. Runs some kind of risk consulting firm. The property is stunning—I’ve seen photos. But he’s difficult. I won’t sugarcoat that.”

“You just described every client I’ve ever loved.”

Margaux laughed. “I’ll send you the details. Claire—this could be good for you. The kind of project that puts you back on the map.”

She hung up. I stood in the kitchen with the phone warm in my hand and the lavender soap smell curling around me like a ghost and Bea’s bass thumping through the ceiling and Theo eating cereal and a number—six figures—sitting in my chest like a lit match.

I sat down at the counter and opened my laptop.

Elias Caine.

I typed it the way I type everything—like a woman who has learned that the internet will tell you things that people won’t. Sixteen years of design work teaches you to research a client before you walk through the door. You Google their name. You look at their social media. You learn what they value by seeing what they show the world. It’s not stalking. It’s reading the room before you’re in it.

Elias Caine gave me almost nothing.

No social media. No Instagram, no Facebook, no carefully curated LinkedIn photo of a man in a blazer looking approachable in soft lighting. His LinkedIn was bare-bones: Caine Risk Consulting. CEO. That was it. No headshot. No connections listed. No recommendations from former colleagues saying what a pleasure it was to work with a man who apparently existed in the negative space of the internet.

I found his company website. A single page. A logo. A contact form. The kind of website that said: I don’t need you to find me. If you need me, you already know how.

I found a mention in a trade publication. A short paragraph about a security consultation contract, vague enough to be meaningless. No quotes. No photo.

And then I found the obituary.

Nadia Caine. Journalist. “Died suddenly.”

Two words. “Died suddenly.” That phrase is a locked door. It could mean anything—an aneurysm at the breakfast table, a car accident on a rain-slicked highway, something worse that the family asked the newspaper not to print. “Died suddenly” is the obituary equivalent of the locked west wing: you’re not supposed to look, which means you can’t stop looking.

Nadia Caine, née Volkov. Award-winning journalist. Published in three languages. Covered conflict zones in Eastern Europe and the Middle East. Survived by her husband, Elias Caine.

The photograph was small, the kind of headshot that accompanies a byline. Dark hair. Direct eyes. A face that was not beautiful in the way magazines mean but striking in the way that made you look twice. The face of a woman who had stood in places where people were shooting at each other and had taken notes.

She died three years ago.

I read the obituary twice. Then I did the thing that I always do—the thing that makes me good at my job and probably makes me unbearable at parties. I screenshotted it. Saved it to a folder on my desktop. Labeled it: CAINE – RESEARCH.

Because here’s the thing about being an interior designer: you’re not decorating rooms. You’re reading people. Every choice a client makes—the color they gravitate toward, the chair they can’t let go of, the room they avoid—tells you something about who they are and what they’ve lost. I’d walked into two hundred homes over sixteen years, and every single one of them was a portrait. The house tells the story the owner can’t.

A forty-acre estate owned by a man who’d fired four designers and kept the west wing locked and whose wife had “died suddenly” three years ago? That house was going to tell me things.

I closed the laptop.

Theo had finished his cereal and was watching me with the specific, quiet attention he’d inherited from some ancestor neither David nor I could account for. Maybe his own future self, reaching backward.

“New project?” he asked.

“Maybe. Full estate renovation. Up north.”

“Big?”

“Big.”

He nodded. Processed. Filed it somewhere in the organized interior of his sixteen-year-old brain that was already better at managing data than most adults I knew. “You need it,” he said. Not a question. He’d seen the bank balance too. Not because I’d shown him—because Theo saw things. He saw the bills on the counter and the lines around my eyes that weren’t there a year ago and the way I checked my phone at dinner not for texts but for banking alerts.

“Yeah,” I said. “I need it.”

From upstairs: the bass dropped, and then silence. Bea’s light clicked off. Nine-fifteen on a Tuesday and my fourteen-year-old was going to bed without saying goodnight, which was somehow worse than the music, because the music was anger and the silence was something harder.

I turned back to the laptop. Opened the screenshot. Nadia Caine looked at me from the obituary photo with the patient, knowing expression of a woman who had seen the inside of places most people only read about.

“Died suddenly.”

What kind of man has no internet presence and a dead wife and forty acres and wants someone to make his house beautiful?

I closed the laptop. Washed Theo’s cereal bowl. Wiped the counter in the circle I’d been wiping for fifteen years—clockwise, starting from the corner by the stove, ending at the spot where the granite had a hairline crack I’d never gotten around to fixing. The muscle memory of maintenance. The choreography of a life built on keeping surfaces clean.

$4,200. Minus $3,100. Equals $1,100. Equals: not enough. Equals: take the job.

I dried my hands. Went upstairs. Paused outside Bea’s door. The light was off but I could hear her breathing—the shallow, deliberate breathing of a teenager pretending to be asleep. I knew that sound. I’d made that sound myself for twelve years of a marriage where the man beside me slept like a person who had never once wondered if he was loved.

I kept walking. My bedroom. Our bedroom. My bedroom. The possessive pronoun kept glitching, even fourteen months later. I sat on the edge of the bed—my side, always my side, the left, because David liked the right and David’s preferences had been the architectural load-bearing wall of our entire existence, and even now, alone, I slept on the left because the habit was the last thing to leave.

I looked at my hand. The ring finger. Bare. The skin was the same color as the rest now—the tan line had faded months ago. But I could still feel it. The circle of metal that had meant: someone chose me. Someone saw me. Someone put this ring on my finger and said: you are not invisible.

Seventeen years. Two children. One kitchen. Zero rings.

I pulled up Margaux’s email on my phone. The address of the estate. The client’s contact information. A schedule for an initial walkthrough.

I typed: “I’ll be there Thursday.”

Sent it before I could calculate the reasons not to.

Then I lay back on the bed and stared at the ceiling and listened to the house settle around me—the pop of the water heater, the hum of the refrigerator, the particular creak of the third step on the staircase that David always said he’d fix and never did. The sounds of a house that had been a marriage and was now just a building. Just walls and a mortgage and the ghost of lavender soap.

I closed my eyes.

Elias Caine. Forty acres. A dead wife. A locked wing.

The math said take the job.

The math always has something to say. The math is the loudest voice in my head—louder than the fear, louder than the doubt, louder than the small, animal part of me that read “died suddenly” and felt something tighten at the base of my skull. The math said: you have $4,200 and two children and a house that is slowly eating you alive. The math said: this is not a choice. This is an inevitability.

I would learn, later, that the math was wrong. Not about the money. About the part where I thought I had no choice.

There’s always a choice.

Mine walked into a room the following Thursday with grey temples and a scar on his jaw and eyes that tracked me like I was the most dangerous thing on his property.

But that’s the next chapter.

And I’m getting ahead of myself.