I lost myself
"hey girl come down, don't stand there, come down"
"even if you have problem you can solve it, don't loose hope, please come down"everyone were shouting looking at a girl who was standing at the edge of the building trying to commit suicide..
"even if you have problem.. you can solve it.. don't loose hope"the girl chuckled sadly saying it...
how can it be solved.. how can I not loose hope when everyone around me had left me.. it's easy for everyone to say for others but to loose hope.. fight with your problem but do you know how much it hurts when everyone around you left you all alone in this works.. does anyone know how much it hurts trying to solve the problems but at last you know you will be left all alone.. no one will be there for you..
I think the most beautiful thing you could ever experienced is finding someone who wants you all.. even if you're all a mess..
a story to me means a plot where there is some surprise.. because this is how life is full of surprises..
"worst feeling??"
when you that no one to tell what's going in your head and how it's slowly killing you..
I am Gwyneth, meaning"happiness" but "happiness??" it's the only thing that I lack in my life..I am at my last year of completing my highschool..I have everything except friends and love form my parents..
you know what??
I've been left all alone from my childhood.. I'm the only child of my parents(mother-Harriet,father-Maynard)..
I have been listening to this love story since my childhood.. how my father chaised my mom and how badly my mom rejected him but at last she fell in love with him and both of them for married.. my parents, they were my idols.. were used to stay happily..I can even say that it was the best family I could ever got but..
but when I turned 10th everything changed.. no one knows what happened to both of them but they started fighting continuously.. even a single day was not gone without fighting.. the worst is when they didn't realise that their action was affecting their little child(me)..
I started suffering from mental pressure since then.. when other children of my age used to pay, I hide in the cupboard or drawer and used to cry looking at my parents..
although they used to give me everything i wanted but still we were not like before..I lacked parents love so I started distracting myself from them, all of my friends, all of the people.. that's how I became all alone in the teen age .
and now you know want?? my so called parents are getting divorced after seventeen days and then I will have no one to rely on.. ohh sorry I already lost everyone whom I could rely on..
so now do you feel pity on me?? even if you do I don't fucking care..
the only thing I learned from my parents is" don't attached to much, life is full of unexpected goodbyes"
I love them, I love them more than I love myself, more than I've ever loved myself but they just keep hurting me and now I've nothing left to loose, nothing can hurt me anymore (sadly chuckles) my life is nothing.. but a comedy
I cannot do this anymore...I have suffered enough now I want to end it here..
I slowly moved forward...I could here people trying to stop me but don't have any courage to suffer anymore..
I looked down..
the view look so beautiful from here..it's worth it if I die from here..
so Gwyneth let's end it here..saying this I jumped from the building and the last this I heard was a voice of a guy crying and asking to open my eyes...
bye bye everyone
